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Vikingr work in progress (ballpoint pen) by farcelet Vikingr work in progress (ballpoint pen) :iconfarcelet:farcelet 23 14 - WIP - by Losenko - WIP - :iconlosenko:Losenko 111 6 Untitled by Losenko Untitled :iconlosenko:Losenko 206 23 Doodle Earth by LeiMelendres Doodle Earth :iconleimelendres:LeiMelendres 207 17 Doodle: A Photographer by LeiMelendres Doodle: A Photographer :iconleimelendres:LeiMelendres 1,331 149 Berlin - Tombs of the Prussian Royal Family by pingallery Berlin - Tombs of the Prussian Royal Family :iconpingallery:pingallery 675 116 The Old Piano Tree by Crackoala The Old Piano Tree :iconcrackoala:Crackoala 871 76
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I'm Sorry
I finally realized that my traumatic past has been catching up to me. My unresolved fears and pain of abandonment as a child by my parents has seeped into my adult life. It triggers extreme reactions in me that drives people close to me away.
I like to pretend to be strong. That whatever comes at me in life, I'll just pull myself up again and get over it. I'd like to believe that what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I'd like to pretend that if I somehow draw out pain, and put it on canvas, that the pain will be contained on canvas, and not deep inside me. But that's not true.
When I'm knocked down and broken, and left to pick up the pieces of myself, I lose a bit more of myself each time. Not everything can be glued back together again. And never stronger than before. I can't trust again. I'm afraid of people. I'm afraid of being close to anyone.
It's hard to get up each morning. I feel hopeless and helpless. It doesn't matter that everyone tells me otherwise. I don't feel that
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The Walls of Unsaid by zancan The Walls of Unsaid :iconzancan:zancan 2,355 391 Phenix by zancan Phenix :iconzancan:zancan 874 89 Insomnia by VivalaVida Insomnia :iconvivalavida:VivalaVida 118 59 See Horse Fly by LindaRHerzog See Horse Fly :iconlindarherzog:LindaRHerzog 126 62 Rabbit Lure by LindaRHerzog Rabbit Lure :iconlindarherzog:LindaRHerzog 83 4 The Last Supper by LindaRHerzog The Last Supper :iconlindarherzog:LindaRHerzog 1,528 233 The Hatter's Decline by DaveWhitlam The Hatter's Decline :icondavewhitlam:DaveWhitlam 26 8 Pokemon Equals September 11th by Boopac Pokemon Equals September 11th :iconboopac:Boopac 5 2

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i will not speak your name unless i have to, i thought you loved me too but that was not real or you would not have done this to me. you will never get better or respect yourself until you get off of that shit, face reality, face the past and the present. you can't drown it out forever it only makes you weaker.

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A messenger whose symbol is the trumpet
Brings a message of hope, the reminder of the importance of loving another
Encourages unity and oneness
Ushers mercy, forgiveness, change and transformation
Associated with the moon, and the element of water, a flash of silver light announces their presence
Brings joy and grants justice
Grants protection from violent weather, with the ability to ease one's travels

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Bernardumaine Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you for faving !
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Arum1966 Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Thanks for Faving "the Stinker."
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Arum1966 Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Thanks for Faving" Uncle Neil."
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Thank you for faving:)
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Thanks for faving! :)
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ChaosKatie Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fave!!
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Sidh-Art Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
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SickJoe Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
thanks for the fav!
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Bernardumaine Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you for faving :D
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mistertrece Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for your support my sister!
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